Going Through the Emotions
Going Through the Emotions: Respect
“Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above rubies.” Proverbs 31:10 KJV I was certainly no ruby…especially at 2:00 in the morning. The light had suddenly popped on blaring in my still unfocused eyes as he excitedly rushed to my bedside. “You awake…I just helped deliver a baby!” My husband, a police officer at the time with the Jackson Police Department, had been on nightshift when a very pregnant, very much in labor woman and her husband pulled into the department’s parking lot. Rick and a few other emergency personnel arrived at her car just in time to fumble through the precious moments of childbirth as a little, wriggling baby girl made her arrival. With shear excitement and rush of adrenaline, my man still grinning from ear to ear, danced before me excited to share the “good news”. At any other time, I would have been full of questions wanting every last detail, however at two in the morning I was not so enthused; not even the least bit interested. Read More
Going Through the Emotions: Loneliness
"It's Friday night, the kids are in bed, and I'm…well, lonely! Did I sign up for this?" Let's face it. Being at home alone with kids, laundry, and noisy neighbors is not as enticing or romantic as we once thought it might be. For me, before Rick and I were married, I had these fanciful dreams of him going to work, putting in his shift, then coming home for a night on the town after the little darlings were tucked away sweetly in their beds. Wrong! It was after reality set in, that I realized, "Hey, this is not what I bargained for." There were hours upon hours of shift work, dinners still sitting on the stove three hours later, mountains of soiled clothing from foot chases through the woods or slushy ponds, not to mention the kids and all their shuttling to and from ballgames and dance recitals – me as their sole shuttler. I began to grow disenchanted with our little life and it was all because of loneliness. Read More
Going Through the Emotions: Anger
Well! It had been a day. Being the unofficial office manager at my place of employment was taking its toll on my psyche. It seemed like every time I turned around somebody needed something. Not important things, mind you, but in my opinion, piddly little bits of nothingness that I couldn't fathom bothering someone over. To make things worse, I knew that I would be going home at the end of the day to manage a whole new set of glorious issues with housework, mile-high laundry, bills that needed paying, and shuttling kids to and fro. Oh how I needed to vent, but my wonderful hubby happened to be working the evening shift, and I would be left to sputter to myself. As I pulled into the driveway, my attention was immediately drawn to the trashcans still lying in the street from the morning's trash pickup, and my son's car blocking my coveted parking place in the garage. Read More
Going Through the Emotions: Thankfulness
It’s a thankless job. Our officers are typically not given the accolades they deserve but what they are given are the midnight shifts, sleepless nights, mounds of paperwork, angry victims, whiny complainers, dangerous situations, little pay, and loads of stress. Then, to top it all off they get to come home to families who, unfortunately, are not always the most welcoming bunch, especially after many hours away from home. Read More
Going Through the Emotions: Resentment
Finally! A family dinner together without any distractions. Just then…brrrrinnnnggggg! The phone rings, and he gets up from the table so he can talk in the other room.
Before you know it, he's swiftly walking back in with radio in hand saying, "I'm real sorry, babe, but they're needing me at the station. Hopefully I won't be gone too long." With a kiss on the cheek or a pat on the back (maybe you don't even get that) he's out the door and gone for who knows how long. Read More
Going Through the Emotions: Worry
How many emotions does a police wife experience throughout her marriage? Too many to count! I was recently asked to put together a series of blogs about emotions that we all face. Things such as worry, fear, resentment, loneliness, and even that dreaded one…jealousy!
So who am I that can write on things such as these? A police wife of 23 years. And, boy can I tell you some stories! So sit back and get ready to dig in. I think you’ll be surprised at what you might find out about yourself and others just like you – like me. Read More